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26 October, 2005

Childish bereavement

I don't know whether there's any specific reason which I've buried in my subconscious, but if I see a child accidentally burst or let go of a helium-filled balloon, so that it's lost, I feel a deep sadness, and probably more disappointment than the child him/herself.  The third frame of today's 'Count Your Sheep' makes me feel distinctly uncomfortable; depressed, with underlying anxiety.

It's much the same if I see a child drop an ice-cream cone: I have an extreme empathy with the sense of grief for a pleasure lost by one's own error. It's so bad that if I was in the same situation, I'd rather go without than risk being upset.

Now THAT says a lot about me....


It reminds me of one of my most traumatic and early childhood memories.

My mum wouldn't let me hold onto a balloon and tied it to my sisters pram. The balloon then got untied and floated away :'(

I think it took me a long time to recover from that one.

Posted by dan at October 26, 2005 11:46 AM

Thanks, Dan I think.

I wish I had the skill to accurately describe my emotional response (hey, I'm male) without overstating its impact (it's not so devastating as to ruin my day) nor understating it (it does affect me, quite profoundly, and makes me cringe inwardly), but I can really empathise with your memory, without knowing why. I do have a few unhappy childhood memories, but nothing seemingly relevant.

Posted by NRT at October 26, 2005 12:25 PM
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